I guess I can relate. There are just so many people. I kind of want to find a smaller community somewhere, like a some kind of forum to latch on and discuss stuff about. I even was a some kind of moderator in a Dead Island forum some years back (which was later on considered the official one) and I loved being there. I think I was moderating some other game servers too at a some point. At that point, people started caring about you and it was awesome.
But... yeah. Having people care about what you said is one thing, is it worth it is an another.
I checked out your tumblr and deviantart. Keep it up, I've seen people going crazy with their ambitions when they find it. And good luck with the college thing. I never wanted to go to college, but good for you if you manage with it.
Just keep doing things. I found out things got a little better when I started doing... just... things.
TheMajormel
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